My Fill of Happiness

Titolo originale: Il pieno di felicità
Book published: January 2019
Book pages: 218
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At thirty you are supposed to have your life sorted out: a job, a stable identity, an income. But what if none of this seems to happen, due to the specific personal choices you made and the precarious state of contemporary economy?

Cecilia is about thirty years old. She loved to study, so she got an MA and even a PhD from that Italian University that prides itself on being the oldest in the world. In Literature, of course. She read all the right books, she attended as many movie festivals as she could and took part in theatre workshops. According to an inherited narrative she trusted, the sum of these experiences was supposed to result into something. Not a prize, more some kind of reasonable reward. She was wrong.

Hoping to pursue an academic career, Cecilia and her partner move from Bologna to Coventry, but after some attempts, she instead ends up spending her time temping at the Library or at a publishing house. Moving to Coventry is anything but permanent, and Cecilia easily finds reasons to go elsewhere, albeit temporarily. Low-cost flights take her back to Bologna, or to her hometown in the North of Italy, a place that she long rejected but that at a distance has become desirable again. Or somewhere else, visiting friends in Lyon, attending her beloved Primavera Festival in Barcelona or an academic conference in St. Petersburg, places that represent the promise of a happier, fuller, more accomplished existence than the one she faces in an England on the verge of Brexit.

The very core of all this spinning around is a quest for her ‘fill of happiness’, as per a line of an old song from a kids’ talent show in Italy that she watched when she was five. A happiness that she believed could be reached.
Through the pages of this book, Cecilia starts to come to terms with the idea that her fill of happiness is simply not available, and her original, innocent desire must be downsized and adapted to her everyday reality. This process requires a painful, everyday struggle that she narrates with sarcasm, irony and tenderness.

Thanks to her unique ability to read the world, she provides a precious book: personal like a memoir, sharp like an essay, stubborn and honest like a generational novel.

Press reviews

Christian Raimo - TuttoLibri - La stampa

Un bildungsroman senza Bildung sulla generazione Erasmus.

Tamara Baris - Atlante - Treccani

Un memoir ma anche un diario di bordo di una generazione.

Lorenzo Mari - PULP Libri

Cecilia Ghidotti non rinuncia mai alla lucidità dell’analisi e all’emersione di una coscienza che non è mai falsa.

Martina Neglia - L'indiependente

Intervista a Cecilia Ghidotti.

Elena Marinelli - Il Libraio

Un libro in cui la parola futuro compare puntuale e problematica.

Dario D'Ubaldo - Sul Romanzo

La vita precaria di una giovane donna.

Giulia Panza - SALT Editions

Ogni generazione ha i propri memoir di viaggio, uno di quelli che preferisco credo parli attualmente al buon 80% di tutti noi, ovvero “Il pieno di felicità”.

Susanna Causarano - The Submarine

Cecilia Ghidotti descrive i mali di una generazione.

Adria Bonanno - Dude Mag

Non sono partita con il desiderio di scrivere un romanzo generazionale. La storia che ho raccontato io è una delle tante possibili - Intervista a Cecilia Ghidotti

Thomas Bendinelli - Madre

Un manifesto per trentenni in crisi.

Nike Del Quercio - Fuori posto

Un manuale per trentenni in crisi.

Sono in salute

Una storia di desideri al ribasso.

Florencia Di Stefano-Abichain - Bionda Radio - Radio Popolare

Cecilia Ghidotti è ospite della rubrica di Florencia Di Stefano-Abichain "ordinary Girls".

- Radio Città Del Capo

Cecilia Ghidotti racconta "Il pieno di felicità".